Sunday, August 7, 2011
Please help...where do i go from here?
I need advice...My husband is a horrible one. We have been married for a little over a year...I just had our baby a few months ago. I love my husband so much...I met him when I was 18 going on 19, and I am now 23. He is 28. Anyhow, he treats me horribly. We have not made love in 16 months. I have tried everything...even just talking to figure out what's wrong. I've suggested counseling, us talking to a pastor...anything. I'm doing what I can, and I'm losing hope. He never takes me anywhere, never tells me anything about how pretty I am or anything. He looks @ other women in front of me, and even asks about other women. My husband is not a u.s. citizen...and I'm beginning ot think that he only used me to get his green card. I feel like a damn fool. I need him so bad. There have been times that I would ask him to help me with our baby, but he says that he is tto tired. I never thought my life would end up this way...he makes me fgele less than a woman. I'm the only one trying, and I can tell that he does not want me. Just now, I looked on the computer and saw that he was looking at asian ...but he says he did not. Well we are the only ones who use this comp...he is a horrible man. When he found out I was pregannt, he was just like ok. He was not excited @ all. And he was sleeping through my labor. Throughout my pregnancy, he would treat me like ****. He would call me names, I walked slow towards the end of my pregnancy, and he would not even wait up for me. Even now, if we're out, he gets up wiht our baby and walks away so fast...Idk what to do. I am exclusively feeding our baby. He was supposed to gt her on the cup so that I can go back to work...but he doenst really try. I think it is time to go, b/c we are getting no where, and he likes to call me names in front of my baby like ***** and hoe. And I am neither...My emotions...I can't take being in this situation anymore. I am a new mother, and I just want to continue focusing on my baby and being the best mother I can be. I'm thinking of staying with my parents for a while until I can see some changes. I canot take the lies anymore...i also think that he is cheating. Because he deletes his browsing history and he locks his phone, and always takes it with him. I looked in it one time, and saw pics of girls topless, but he said he did not put it there. Also, I saw a pic of his on the comp once. And he went to the fedex store, and was gone for like 8 hours...I feel like afool. He move dus here away from my fam and friends, and so I've had no one to turn to throughout all of this. I'm sorry this is so long. And I know I'm stupid for still being here. But it's hard for me b/c he is the breadwinner, but I know if I go, I can get on my feet for my baby's sake and I's. We deserve better. I know one day I can find someone who will want and love me forever. I just need some encouragement or a push to do so. Thanks.
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